why do we have to wait till our egos are horribly bruised, ripped to shreds and trampled upon before we decide enough is enough?
what's up with this completely blind and misguided ability to hold fast to hope even while we feel our hearts about to explode and implode at the same time? or is that just the feeling of our ego being bashed up?

i'm sorry you have to go through this now and i'm sorry you have to find your way out alone while we standby watching you through a glass panel. we all know you'll find your way out but still, if i could hand you a knife to cut your heart out now, i would. but most of all i'm sorry, that at the same time, you had to find out that your best friend really isn't your best friend at all.

it's hard to understand or even have a vague notion of how someone's really feeling if you've never been through it yourself, if you've never been in any position anything like it. it goes both ways. assumptions are often wrong. hopefully we can both cut them some slack. it doesn't mean that you can't be there for her even though she's not being there for you. unconditional is without conditions. it also doesn't mean you can't close your door on her. locking it prolly just wouldn't be wise. you don't want to keep yourself prisoner do you?

. keeping track .

damn it's a busy period

My Jung essay was due yesterday, I will be 2 days late.
My crit review is due tomorrow but I applied for a 2 day extension. I got a day, but that's alright. But augh I'm becoming that which I looked at with disdain and disbelief.
My stats asg is due on the 4th, that's next Thurs then the snow trip the following morning till Sunday evening.
Gotta get groceries and other necessities for the trip in between somehow. Need long johns I think. I wanna get snow boots like the ones I saw at Preston. $70 ain't too bad. Too bad they didn't have my size.
Then Wicked on the 10th. Damn that it clashes with my FCUK workshop. I was so looking forward to that. Aiya.
Then clubbin with Leon and Hiro...maybe or will postpone that to my birthday the followin week to kill 2 birds wi 1 stone.
Gotta meet up with Aunt Ida for my VP and prolly Aunt Alice as well.
Then my birthday on the 20th.
Then breathe and finally the break, the week or so after. But keeping in mind that SCB's asg 2 is due the Thurs after the break and the Psych report the following Tues. With the final Jung essay due slightly less than 2 wks after. And finally study break.
And omg, gotta catch up on readings by then.
And sometime in between, I gotta do my class presentation, either that or that's another 1000 words for Jung.

WHY SO FAST!!!!!

Gotta try to get my presentation in the week before the break. That's the only free-ish week.

‘99% of your creation is complete before you begin to see the evidence. In other words, you’ve lived life, you’ve launched rockets, source has received your rocket, law of attraction has acted on your rocket, actualization is beginning to form around your rocket of desire, but there’s no physical evidence yet. So if you’re counting on the physical evidence before you cheer up,
then you have a sort of gap, don’t you.

Physical friends will say, ‘Well, Abraham, if I could be over there I would feel so much better.’

And we say, ‘We know. But you’ve got to feel better before you can get over there.’

And they say, ‘Can’t I just be the one exception in all of the universe? Can’t you just make it better?

Can’t you change the circumstance so that I can feel better?’

And we say, ‘It’s an inside job. You’ve got to find a way to shift your vibration, and then whatever it is you’re asking for can flow easily into your experience.’

– Abraham-Hicks

Obviously I don't learn my lessons very quickly. Thankfully I have a patient and kind teacher.
It's the same lesson again - everybody does the best they can with the knowledge they have at that moment.
Once again I'm sorry for being overly judgemental and/or critical. I'm still learning. I'm still trying. I -am- a Virgo you know. At least I'm trying.

I like random coincidences and synchronicity
Nothing was planned or purposely manipulated. It all just happened on 20/08/2008. Which also adds up in numerology to 1/1 which then becomes 2...but aiya...lets play along with the synchronicity

. i'm going to the snoow~ i'm going to the snoow~ .

snoowboaarding snooowboarding
Sept 5, 6, 7


then later in the year
i'm going tooo seoul~ i'm going tooo seoul~

i was hoping it'd be more of a snow trip but there's only 1 day of skiing =/
oh well
but then again

i'm going to the snoow~ i'm going to the snoow~

. more food .

In between making the black cherry mocha and the kiwi lime cupcakes, I made a batch of black cherry yoghurt muffins with chocolate chips and 1 had a face on it!! hehe...

I also borrowed my friend's soya bean milk maker thingamajig (which by the way, is a BITCH to clean!!!!!!!!!) and did my very own batch of home made soy milk. Awesomeness I tells ya! I made a few batches. Thing about home made soy milk is that you'll get this residue thingy which the Japs call okara. It's awesome stuff....full of nutrition -> protein, fibre, and all that jazz. Also, it's a superb ingredient for breads and baked goods.

While I was making the kiwi lime cupcakes, I made a mistake and sifted my sugar with my flour (sugar shuda been creamed wi e butter) so I kept that bag of mistake for future use. I don't deal with wastage very well see...

So I used that, added the okara, choc chips and yoghurt and...I dunno maybe 1 egg or something. I wanted to make something scone-like, bread-like. Also I was lazy so I just plonked the whole bowl of batter down into a loaf shaped thing on my pan. I topped it with cinnamon sugar so it'd be all crispy crusty like.

It came out kinda cake like, kinda scone like, kinda bread like, kinda awfully yummilicious as my friend put it. =)

Check the texture out...slightly chewy.....very fluffy......

Mmmness

. one random walk .

fr northcote to brunswick
this is why i could love this place
this is why i love my phone and it's camera

. black cherry mocha .