. Reminder .

Looking through the history of a conversation between a dear friend and myself and saw this snippet I posted. I think I need this reminder again. It is relevant and it is beautiful. But most importantly, it is another foothold to climbing back up to Remembering and Being ME again.

What you are wanting to do is influence someone into the Vortex but all
you can do is get in there yourself.
You cannot influence someone in the Vortex from outside the Vortex and
when more people come to understand that there will be a lot more miracles going on, you see.
Think about it from your own perspective just for a moment. Imagine that you are the one who is sick and someone is holding you as their object of attention and they so know everything. They know, they know you are sick but they know you are asking for wellness in a stronger way than you ever did before and they are fixated upon your wellness and celebrating the wellness result already. And now they’re
looking at you but they’re knowing, they’re knowing you here. Think how that would feel to you. Think how that would feel.
Now, have someone walk in who sees you and is worried about you. And is playing stupid games with you to try and distract you from your worry. You get a sense of what we are talking about?
In other words, feel how it feels when someone knows your strength or
when someone knows your weakness. You ever have anyone criticize you? How does it feel? How does it feel when someone focuses upon some lack in you and gives it your undivided attention? You feel the diminishment of their gaze, you see. And think about how it
feels when someone looks at you and just knows your value, just knows it, you see. But you got to practice knowing it.
Most people only know what they observe, so well children make them feel one way and sick children make them feel another, and what this child is saying to you, the whole reason for this experience, this powerful teacher coming forth, is to say, you gotta find a way of looking at me that makes you feel good and don’t ask me to be it first. So, if you have access to this child where you could have a conversation, what you would say, hey thanks for waking me up.
I was looking at you like you are instead of like you REALLY are.
Chicago 2009, CD No. 4, Track 6, 2:36 - end

I am truly thankful for this relationship I have with this dear friend of mine.  Two friends that I have with birthdays on the same date. One wonderfully darling, the other a chronic and throbbing bitterness derived from brief (very), intense (somewhat) bouts of sweetness. Yet both have been serving the same purpose of growth and Remembering. It will be nice to one day not need the bitter. It would be really nice. Because I wonder about the vibes I put out on days where my psyche is a little weaker and when I'm caught off-guard. But on better days, it provides fuel to strive for improvement, betterment, even if only for distraction.

I will eventually find my way out of this cloud for good and I will once again reclaim my light and once again be clear enough to be a conduit for Source wisdom to shine through for others and myself, to help illuminate other people's light switches so they can reclaim their light too.
And this whole episode will serve as more fuel for a brighter light.