. deja voodoo .

circa 1998 - 2001 & 2003. i never thought it'd happen again but sometimes those damn things jus keep coming back. like fucking flies.

i wish i could be more like my brother. he is resilient. we went through the same thing at the same time but he never said a word about it till now. as he said, "i hardly consider myself troubled. like i don't know trouble until it's all blown over and i look back and realise it was more serious than i thought."

he leads a charmed life. my silly charmed bro. you don't know an enigma till u've met him.

maybe i need a major fever to fry part of my brain too.